I'm new...with questions...

[Nomad]

I am still struggling with it. I am not sure if I will stay in the relationship due to my interests in spanking, or find the grass is or is not greener on the other side. Being that I am very unsure to leave a life I know behind without knowing what lies ahead is tough. I have other difficulties within my marrage that we are working on, and if these do not work out I know what I will be looking for. Some of our problems stem from my inerest and do not know. So basically for now yes I do just live with it. I do know there are other people that stay in these relationship, but explore the spanking outside of thier marriage.
Basically I can not tell you what I am doing or advise you as I am very confused at the time about this.