Tears and Spanking

I have always wanted to be spanked to tears. I've only had one man who really spanked me good, (other men have been "afraid to hurt me" that's the whole point, though, isn't it) He had promised that at our next session, I was gonna cry. Unfortunately, there was never a next session. I ended the relationship because he obviously forgot that ultimately, the sub has the control and he did something to me that he shouldn't have. Sometimes, though, wish my damn principles didn't get in the way.