[Rose]

This is something that I've wondered about. I cannot remember when I first became interested in spanking. I've just always been interested. As early as I can remember, I'd always listen closely whenever other kids talked about spanking. In preschool I remember finding a book called "The Lonely Doll," which had an image of a doll being spanked. Needless to say, I read it over and over again. I wish I understood why I was and am so interested in it. Many times I've wished that I could stop. I still wish it sometimes. I don't know what, if anything, really triggered my interest. It's just always been there.