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honestly
I haven't cried from a spanking since I was about 11. I think it's linked to some pretty horrible punishments I got from that point in my life on and getting through a spanking for me meant blocking it all out. It was my goal to be silent and stoic (some of you can attest I do a VERY good job with this). I wasn't going to give the person the satisfaction of making me cry. I never fully mastered the silent part but I did the crying part.
Ironic now that I'm doing this willingly I really wish I could cry. I'm with Jerseysweet though on this one. The person who is going to get there is going to be some one I am connected with on a whole different level. As I heard some one put it the other day, "the one that get's through is going to be my prince."
Make no mistake when I'm playing I'm only looking to play not fall apart emotionally... but there have been times where it's more intimate then play and I wish I could have tears... and nothing comes.
Oh well tear's are my everest!
Kaylex
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